Hate Me Like I Do

He wants to run, wants to hide

wants to escape his past

but for reasons unknown, he can’t let go

the pain of memory holds fast

The words he said still haunt his mind

and though heaven forgave his wrongs

the demons that mock him laugh so loud

he finds he can’t move on

He keeps the pain down, below the skin

but it still wreaks havoc inside

tearing his weakened heart to shreds

til it hurts too much to hide

He picks up the pieces, looks for his soul

tries to forget what he’s done

but when he looks back at his ruined past

he still hates what he’s become

She tried to run, tried to hide

but the pain continued to burn

her heart can love but’s too crippled to trust

too many times she was spurned

She will do anything to conceal

the numbing that grows inside

but in the end, what she truly wants

is someone to see past the lie

She keeps the pain down, below the skin

but it still wreaks havoc inside

tearing her weakened heart to shreds

til it hurts too much to hide

She picks up the pieces, looks for her soul

tries to forget how she’s numb

but when she looks back at her ruined past

she still hates what she’s become

I will run, I will hide

when the pain becomes too strong

those greater than me have fallen fast

I know I can’t last for long

The world tried to kill my spirit

with pain from both outside and in

pressure builds and the Devil smirks

“what a fool to think you could win”

I keep the pain down, below the skin

but it still wreaks havoc inside

tearing my weakened heart to shreds

til it hurts too much to hide

I pick up the pieces, look for my soul

try to forget how dark won

but when I look back at my ravaged past

I still hate what I’ve become

~ by ccsfuzz on December 1, 2008.