Fading Away/Numb, I haven’t decided which yet

Stab wound in my chest

I can feel my heart ripping

And I have the feeling

I was the one who put it there

inhale

exhale

Slowly, I remember

How I wanted to end the cold

How I wanted to stop the numbing

I broke open my stone heart with a dagger

Inhale 

Exhale

Focusing on the breathing

cherishing each breath

for it may be my last

still, I am peaceful

Inhale

Exhale

Put a hand to my heart

and rip out the dagger

The pain makes me scream

Inhale

Exhale

The crows come to fest on my corpse

but I’m not dead

not yet

My hand in sticky with blood

My breath comes in gasps

Can’t you hear it in my breathing?

Can’t you hear me fading away?

Inhale 

Exhale

All the healers in the world

would be useless to me now

I don’t know if I’ve won heaven

but I don’t care if I go to hell

Inhale Exhale

I struggle to whisper

my last word to the air

better to feel pain

than nothing at all

I feel my heart withering

I slowly fade away

Inhale

~ by ccsfuzz on July 9, 2008.