No Hope

She lay there tired from another night

Of constant struggle in an endless fight

I drew her close to me, held her tight

Til no more tears flowed from her eyes

She whispered, “Please tell me that there’s a light”

Somewhere close, soon in my sight

That the path I’m on is what’s truly right

All I need you to say is it’ll be alright

I’m sorry, but

No, it’s not going to be okay

Not tomorrow, not for days

I know you’re sick of them lying to you,

Because you deserve it, I’ll give you the truth

No it’s not going to be okay

They lied when they said it was never too late

Still, here’s something I’ll promise you

I’ll be by your side whatever you do

He was a hopeless cause, all alone

Anger inside covered light that had shone

Sorry, I’m too lazy to finish this poem

Suck it up, finish it on your own.

hah

genius right there

Do What You Have To Do

Sarah Mclachlan-Do What You Have To Do

This fits a friend of mine, they’ll know who they are

What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has lead you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do …

And I have the sense to recognize that
I don’t know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I’m ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize

That I don’t know how
To let you go
I don’t know how
To let you go

A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you

I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go

Tirrade

You were the strong one weren’t you

oh, you thought I was

but no

I’ve learned how weak I am

How stupid, pitiful, helpless

And it’s getting bad now

You’re leaving, along with everything

everyone

all of it is leaving 

gone

And I’m standing in the ruins

holding the ashes

feeling those too, slip from my hands

How can I find myself, when there’s nothing to find

I’m hollow

was I ever me, or was I a shell of you

All is gone

this is wrong

I can’t go on like this

I can’t even write anymore

If I ever had a knack, well, it’s gone

Look at the shit up there

I’m rereading, and that is utter crap

I need you

I’m selfish, but I do

I’d say you can’t do this to me

but hey

they say what goes around comes around

And it’s gaining momentum

I’m ending this shit tirrade

There isn’t anything to say anymore

Peace

Fade

What do you mean that you don’t care?

I’ve looked but can’t find you anywhere

You said “It’s my burden to bear”

But please come back, give me my share

 

You never told me what was wrong

I guess I should’ve known all along

Is it too late, you too far gone?

You know that without you, I can’t be strong

 

I guess I made it all a game

From this view, nothing looks the same

I never saw you weren’t okay

I thought you’d follow when I walked away

 

And now without you, I can’t breathe

The tears that drown me keep me from sleep

My heart is gone, from body freed

Like everything else, just left me to bleed

 

A hopeless coward that God won’t save

I wish I had the guts to leave this place

For there is no reason to see more days

But I won’t go, guess I’ll just fade

Will You?

When love dies

Will you sit and cry

Claim that love’s a sin

When love goes

Will your pain not show

As it’s kept within

When love fades

Will you walk away

Give a relieved grin

When love hurts

Will you rob it’s worth

Throw it to the wind

When love bleeds

Will you call it weak

Laugh as it grows thin

When love comes

Will you bring your gun

Quickly pull the pin

When love burns 

Will you quickly turn

Protect heart of tin

When love leaves

Will your sad heart freeze

Never love again

You’re Wrong

You think you’re strong, but I know the truth

I know how weak you are

Strength isn’t digging a knife in healed wounds

It’s allowing them to scar

You think you’re mature but I know the truth

I know how childish you are

You spend all your efforts on petty revenge

Taking it much too far

You think you’re perfect but I know the truth

I know how ugly you are

Self-righteous, selfish, dependant, naive

Your self-believed beauty is marred

You think you can win, but I know the truth

I know what your losses are

Almost feel sorry for your hopeless plight

You’re in lands off of your chart

You think you’re better, but I know the truth

I know how low you are

Who were you to try and rule my life?

I don’t need you to fill that part

You think you’re right, but I know the truth

I know how wrong you are

Go ahead and believe what you want

We still see your foolish heart

This just makes me want to cry

Somebody’s a little psycho

“Don’t you just want to stab babies?”

-CCS

umm, yeah, no offense intended to all of you sane people. I just……… y’know that thing where you have thoughts you think but don’t really say. Well, I was kinda spacing and by natural thought process didn’t work. Yeah, I’m a terrible person, so sue me.

 

 

 

On second thought, please don’t. I’m broke already

In Memorial….

A few days ago, my two beautiful unicorns were killed. Some one who I used to believe close to me shot them as they were held tight in my embrace. Someday I will have my revenge on the terrible perpetrator who’s morales were so low that they could engage in such a heinous act of violence against such adorable and gentle creatures. Although the evildoer claims that he was acting in self defense, and that the last unicorn he’d come across had a switchblade, or rather, switch horn, I know that he was acting simply in spite. My unicorns were amazing, gentle, nice, loving, and the best friends I’d ever had. I would really appreciate it if you would hold a small, silent vigil for my two late friends. 

Sonnet 1

 

 

Just a note, I am not a creepy stalker, that is not why I’m writing creepy stalker poetry. This isn’t about anyone in particular, exactly. Ahem *Winks at Parksteroni*, anyway, enjoy and be traumatized.

 

 

Oh my love, do you mock my devotion?

You know I would do anything for you.

My eyes watch you in your every motion,

But laugh in spite is all you ever do.

Yet still, I cherish this laughter I cause,

Your mirth the sweet sound of a ringing bell.

Perhaps someday when your stone, cold hear thaws, 

I’ll have your laugh, and the rest of you as well.

Alas my love, my heart still bears a rift.

The joy of love you’ve turned to something worse.

Yet I’m caught in this love, be it God’s gift.

Or be you Satan’s weapon, love his curse.

Although I suffer without what I crave,

I’ll love you til I escape to my grave.